Things I am thinking about: mystery schools. Esoteric, hidden, occult knowledge. Initiations. Lifting the veil.
It seems the closer I am to truth, the harder it is to remember. I can sometimes touch Universal Truth, and then, if I don’t write it down immediately, it escapes with force, like I am not supposed to remember it… not equipped to handle it. It makes me think of Caligula, supposedly driven insane by learning too much too fast.
I wonder, then, if these ancient mystery schools have been preserved. I read a lot of old books, medieval philosophy… learning the “language of the birds.” I wonder if the new schools of thought (as in wicca groups, witchtok, and the astro Insta/Twitter communities) are just winging it. A lot of things I learn from the old tomes contradict what I see around me everyday (ie, the meanings of Tarot cards, cleansing decks, the associations of planets with their stones and herbs). Am I just leaning in the wrong direction? Have I just not found the right circles to join? Is there a modern equivalent to the occult schools of thought of the past? If so, how do I get in? What work can I do? Are we being lazy by just googling things and believing them? Have the meanings changed, evolved over time? Or is it really all about intent, so rules don’t apply? I’m stumped – and I believe both things to be true. So then, what does that mean? Ahhh!
I am not pagan. I do not practice wicca. I only sometimes feel like a “witch.” Is there another word for what I practice? Is it simply “magic”?
I’m also thinking a lot about Mercury. I think it is my favorite, for many reasons..
-Gemini vibes: wordy, airy and maybe volatile
-Genderless/gender fluid/androgynous (and celebrated for it!!)
-changable, transformation (winged feet to change from earth-creature to god)
-a bit of a thief, trickster, borrowing ideas, being a catalyst for change
-messenger of the gods, a go-between for secret knowledge
Margot Velvet 