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Tag: gemini

  • New Moon in Gemini

    New Moon in Gemini

    a MoonOmens live Global Meditation ::: 5/22/2020

    “I am here in this moment filled
    with emotions and feelings. A lot
    has unfolded this month, and as
    I make sense of it all, I surrender
    and trust that all is well and
    divine timing is at work.”

    ~ Shawn Fontaine

    I am not aware of any presence beyond my own. I have arrived at my garden to find myself transported, trapped, entangled in the wild and unkempt wilderness. It is dark and purple and I am bound by ropes of plant material – not ivy, but strands of thick green vegetation. Like a maze of pumpkin vines, they are wrapped around my body, strapping me to the earth as I lie on my back, looking helplessly up at the swirl of the sky.

    I am not breathing normally. My lungs are struggling to take in breaths that are satisfying. I pant. I am distracted. It’s not even nighttime. I don’t like this – this doesn’t feel right. Why am I alone? Where is Gemini? I am fluttering between the garden and real life, blipping in and out of each.

    Of course… I am Gemini. I am both Twins.

    I take a moment to concentrate on breathing and bring the me in real life to the me in the garden. I am disjointed, disconnected. I need to actually pull myself together. Bring the physical to the spiritual. In real life, I have brought a selenite tower. It is crude as a wand, but it will work. My left palm is open, facing up and open to the stream of universal truth and knowledge. My right hand holds the tower, pointing inwards at an angle. I am swirling the crystal, stirring the energy that holds the vines in place. I am twirling the vines up and away with the crystal, like spaghetti around a metaphysical fork. I fling it off and away, and go back for more. I release this energy, this symbolic impediment, this stagnation, back into the universe.

    I feel … simultaneously embarrassed for myself, because I am so sure this looks dumb. I am also confused, because it seems to be actually working. In the garden, I am free of the earthen prison. In real life, I am calm and breathing and relaxed. My brow has softened, and I feel … lighter!

    I am One Gemini, both Twins, body and spirit, and I put the garden visualization aside. I snap back to real life and zone into what the speaker is saying. My eyes are closed and I am crying, though just a tiny bit. This session confuses me. I am feeling too human; I am stupidly incapable and unable to grasp the true lesson today. I did not even get to check in on my Light Plant. I tell myself that it is okay to be imperfect; just go with it. Listen to your body this time. Quietly I sit, watching the blackness behind my eyelids churn slowly like a lava lamp. I feel the familiar tingle in my extremities. I relax. I breathe. I listen.

    The speaker says something along the lines of,

    “My past self would be so grateful to see where I am now. All they wanted was to know that I would make it through and be okay. Here I am.

    So here I am.”

    And there is the truth. How quickly I have forgotten how recently it was I was searching for reassurance. I got it. I made it. I was saved. I moved on. And so soon after, I lost sight of my own struggle – almost immediately!! I apologized to the Universe for being a brat. I thanked the selenite for the role it played – as a symbol or an actual item of power, I am not certain.

    Now, it is back to work.

  • Astrology as a Tool for Enlightenment

    Astrology as a Tool for Enlightenment

    What is the purpose of astrology?

    I think most would say it is a tool to come to know and understand ourselves; it can be a path to self-acceptance and a way to more deeply understand what it is to be human. But can it also be a template?

    Is it a path to enlightenment? To being whole? To feeling… fullfilled?

    I have long been interested in astrology. Since I was young child, I was fascinated by reading my horoscope. At first I thought they were simply messages from psychics. I thought you had to be an all-knowing guru with a supernatural gift; horoscopes were divinely inspired passages from the great beyond. I am not sure when it clicked, exactly, but I have come to realize now that it is simply a skill that can be developed like any other. It is so very detailed and requires absorbing so much old and passed-down knowledge that I am positive that it is beyond me to fully grasp the concepts well enough in my lifetime to be able to craft horoscopes. What I do know is that it is much like deciphering any other language, or solving for a scientific equation. For example, if Mars moves into Capricorn and is trine to Saturn, what consequence will this have a Taurus sun/Aquarius moon? …Well, I don’t know. I could probably figure it out, but it would take a lot of consulting other sources!

    But, I digress. I am an Aries sun and I certainly encapsulate many Aries tendencies. I can be impulsive. I can leap into big life-altering decisions head-first with a defiant “I WILL make this work” attitude. I can get very angry and hold grudges. I can sometimes be blunt and hurtful if the truth needs to be told that way. (I am writing this with fiery excitement, check my vibes!) I can be overly ambitious and start big projects with good intentions … and abandon them. I can be stubborn and hard-headed, like my Ram counterpart. I am frequently a little too loud – in conversation, laughter, and don’t get me started on singing in the car. I have aptly renamed it “screamsinging”. I have toxic Aries traits, too: I deflect blame almost always (sorry, Husband!). I need to be right. All of these things are very much “me” but I am not some of the things Aries is always said to be: Confrontational. A Leader. Aggressive. Sporty. Organized. Powerful. Hmm… Nope. Can’t relate.

    Enter Gemini. (This is the whole point – forgive my verbosity.) Gemini stalks my placements. What I know about Gemini is only just beyond beginners knowledge. Gemini is a mutable sign, which may be why I never took much stock in taking notice (Ahem, *big Aries mood*). I am a Gemini moon, Gemini rising (First House), and I have Gemini in Chiron… and Chiron is also in my First House. That’s a triple Gemini whammy. What are you trying to say, Universe?

    I feel like there is a big, BIG message there, which brings me back to my initial prompt. Can astrology act as a path to fulfillment? If I intentionally nurture my Gemini nature… will I become whole?

  • Placements and Birth Chart

    Placements and Birth Chart

    This is my cheat sheet and reference guide. ♈︎ // ♊︎ // ♊︎

    Birth Chart from Co-Star Astrology
    Placements from Co-Star Astrology
    Placements from Sanctuary World