New Moon Solar Eclipse ::: 6/21/2020
“I am grateful for this new cycle.
As I heal and cleanse myself of the past,
I grow by the new light that shines
upon me. I am one with the Moon.
I trust my path. All my dreams now
come true.”
~ Carrie Marie Bush
I had every intention of participating in the Live Global Meditation with MoonOmens, but I missed it.
I was deeply engaged in ArtBrain, working tirelessly. I was inspired by another artist, unknown and uncredited, who lent their image to some (likely) wholesaler. It was a foam-backed pendulum board showcasing a gorgeous four-eyed woman with her hands held in prayer, eyes closed, titled Astral Woman. Above her head were mandalas and sacred geometry, crescent moons and glittering stars. At around 11pm on the 20th, I went to work digitally painting my own version. I labored until 5am, then resumed around 10am. After finishing up the painting, I submitted it to OfficeDepot for print and a very polite man (in mask and gloves! thumbs up!) brought out the finished copies to me curbside.
I worked until midnight creating the final pieces and did not even hear the ping of my phone in the distance through my fervor.
She is not my own creation, but there’s a touch of me in it. She is so lovely and beautiful.
The art I make brings joy and wonder. I’ve been told it’s immature and undeveloped. It’s true that I often create works inspired by others. I know their art is valid, so if I create my own version of something, or a spin off of something else, it is also likely to be successful. I make it different enough that it becomes it’s own thing with it’s own spirit, but it’s creation was driven by imitation-labelled-inspiration. Perhaps the end result is not true to the Divine inside me… but it is fun and exciting. Kind of like reading a gossip magazine (when you know there are “real” things to read) or indulging in a sweet treat (when you know something more nutritious is on hand).
I need to do the REAL work – the heavy lifting. What does MY art look like?
I reflect on my quarantine projects:
1. Yoshi Tarot (obviously 2 borrowed ideas morphed into something playful and fun)
2. My Lapis Lazuli wall hanging: slightly truer because I had all the materials on hand, but it was still loosely based on the beautiful crafted wreaths and crystal wall art on Instagram and Etsy
3. Astral Woman pendulum board: based on a witchy reseller’s pendulum board, with some major improvements and embellishments.
When I sit down to make something, I think:
1. I saw this thing I wanted but I can’t afford it/justify it, etc.
2. I think this would be a cool thing to have, does it exist? Can I buy it? Oh no, no one’s made it yet?
And then I just sit down and make the thing. It’s always about my own wants. It does not speak to any truth besides “gimme gimme gimme!”
I know I am capable of creating many more beautiful, wonderful works of art. My next project is to come up with something original that speaks to my inner truth, that conveys a deeper meaning or is thoughtfully planned – not just something pretty to look at with wow-factor.
The New Moon in Cancer was sending me all the energy and tools I needed to really learn this hard truth about myself. (To be fair, Scorpio Husband has been telling me this for a long time, trying to encourage me to be more thoughtful and I have responded poorly. I am embracing it now!)
Universe, thank you for your wisdom.
Moon, thank you for showing me that what I mustn’t fear my “dark side”; that examining it with an open mind is a necessary step in my personal growth. I learn from it, love myself through it, and continue evolving.
Update: I just sold the pink/yellow/gold version to a friend for $40. 🙂
Margot Velvet 